Things I Enjoy (v2)
Goldfish (the snack, the fish itself is sorta a bland kinda animal). Chinese food. Burrito Panfilo. Driving on the highway at night playing loud music by yourself. Droning guitar lines. The sound of feedback and tension before a band plays. Stagedives. Being toppled over by waves. Ludens cough drops. Asphalt mirages. Crunchy leaves. Crackling flame. Speaking one's opinion. Cigar smoke. Long phone conversations. Feeling cared about. Catching someone you care about looking at you when you're sleeping. Sleeping. Worn out shoes. Vinyl. Eating vegan but not being vegan. Looking up at the stars every once and awhile (i know, cliched). Good hugs. Sarcasm. A sense of history in a place.

Things I Don't Enjoy
Being ditched. Bad internet connections. Too much chocolate in chocolate milk (should be just a touch, no homo). Okra. Affliction brand clothing. Faux hawks. Pretenciousness. When you feel like you've still gotta pee a little but you can't make it happen. Too large pants. Loud chewing. Wet chewing...ugh. Grudges over inconsequential things. Losing touch. Sloppy drunks/people who can't have fun without being out of it. Tough guy posturing. Looking down at others legitimate beliefs. People wearing tank tops that shouldn't due to moobage. When you get things caught in your teeth. Brain freeze. Throat freeze, even worse. Missing a step you've prepared for on a staircase. Sinking feelings in your stomach. Worrying.

Things I Would Like to Do
Travel everywhere. Publish a book. Have an album pressed, even if it's self produced. Actually start playing shows. Stop worrying about stupid things. Transfer. Stop getting down on myself sometimes. STOP BEING SICK. Learn how to play piano. Become a better guitar player. Gain some muscle. Ride on a ride on lawnmower. Read more often. Reach out more often. Be more understanding about things/a better friend/less aggravating/less judgemental.

This past week/weekend was purty awesome. School was...school. Fun. Hanging out with people, little work here and there, stuff like that. Thursday I saw Cruel Hand and Trapped Under Ice, which was awesome, even though I left with a good ole concussion and numerous bruises. Over the weekend I finally got to go up and visit Kim at JMU, which was really fun I must say. We just kind of hung out and chilled and talked, which was nice. Of course, knowing myself, I ended up being sick, which was annoying to all parties, and I felt bad because it was my first time seeing her in 3 weeks and I wasn't able to do some stuff because I was coughing up a storm and whatnot (turns out I have bronchitis, what else is new). Oh well. Next time. She was nice enough to stay with me though even when she had much better options that woulda been more fun...I'm a lucky hombre. Hopefully I'll get to see her again sooner rather than later, though she's got a purty busy schedule and I guess I kind of do too...sigh. Guess that's just one of the changes college brings, among other things. Anyways, definitely a good weekend, even though I was a Debbie Downer with being sick.

It's amazing having someone who can always make you feel happier, even when you're not with them.

By the Wayside

Nevermind, it's a new week, trying to think happy :) just was in a terrible mood this past weekend, jealous about things I shouldn't have been, some friends slighted me I think, I felt kinda alone in that sense, and I was just mad feeling in general, not sure why...guess it was my time of the month. Haha eww. Plus I didn't feel very well this weekend, which probably amplified things. But I hate feeling mad like that, and I feel like I took it out on some people, which I definitely didn't mean to do or anything like that. That and I'm not good at letting people know how I feel I guess? I don't know. I feel like a loser complaining like this. But. It's a new week, hopefully I can turn things around.

Today's show was so good, the Back to School Jam has always rocked. Only bad part was Down to Nothing didn't play as usual, but still, Fire & Ice and Rival Mob killed it, just a great night with really cool people and good friends, banged up and bruised but still.

Overall a mixed weekend emotion wise I guess. On one hand the show rocked, that was really fun, and going to Belle Isle with a bunch of people was fun too the other day, gotta say, not too many places that you get to see Wiccan/Satanic meeting sites, abandoned buildings, historical areas, and a river all in one. Other non happy stuff is covered above.

What

Could possibly go right?

Today sucked. Just one of those days were absolutely nothing goes your way. Frustrated, tired, bummed out, and not feeling good, awesome combination. Actually Belle Isle was pretty fun but other than that, nah. Whatever, tomorrow's a new day, going to a fun show with a bunch of friends, that'll be good.

College.

Haven't done one of these in awhile. Just been busy and stuff I guess. Did a ton of stuff this week, saw a friends band and got to hang out with a bunch of awesome dudes from NY whose bands also played, this was on Sunday I think. That was really fun, just a chill night with cool new people. Since then I've just been hanging out with my friends, went to Ryan's apartment, jammed out there and met some cool bike punk guys and gals, got lost in Midlothian somehow haha, got the cops called on us when we were hanging with some hardcore kids in Shafer Court, checked out a bunch of awesome stores, wrote music for my new band with Stewart, got yelled at by a crazy homeless man, got a classy 50's style haircut, just stuff like that. I've been having a good time at college so far, meeting lots of cool people and whatnot.

At the same time though, it's been pretty tough. I miss her a lot...I know I'm only 2 hours away and it's only been a little over a week but still, it sucks, because she's both my girlfriend and my best female friend, so it's been rough. I just miss all the little things, going on adventures downtown...spinning around on the tire swings till we got sick...going to the art museum and making fun of the paintings and picking up weird metal stick things...doing my stupid accents with her...slinkies...eating whole donuts...laughing all the time at everything haha...this summer was awesome, and she had a lot to do with that. I hate the fact that I can't be there when she's unhappy, and just to be able to tell her whatever and experience things with her. Sigh. But. Hopefully I'll get to visit soon, and eventually maybe I'll end up at JMU, I've gotta step my academic game up for that though, which I'm working hard to do.