Really good weekend, got to finally see Kim for a monthaversary! Every time those roll around one of us has been busy or something haha, but we got to get together for our six month. I had a lot of fun meeting and hanging out with her friends, and just getting time to lay around with her and talk is always nice. The past six months have been amazing. I feel like with her I've obviously had an great time, but also matured and changed for the positive as a person, and made new friends. I was sad to have to say bye to her, but then again we've only got a couple weeks till we see each other again.

On a more negative note, bleh weird mood all day. I think it's just because I'm tired, and I think I'm getting a cold or something. Just kinda had a bleak outlook on things today, felt weird and negative about myself, that no one gives a shit about what I do, and just didn't feel good in general haha. Sigh. Whatever. Seeing and hanging out with friends helped some I suppose, I tried to put on a happy face them and stuff and we had a good time. Oh well. Just one of those days.



^Kinda how I felt. I know the lyrics don't apply, and not trying to sound emo, but I just felt melancholy and useless all day. I'll stop bitching about it, I don't like complaining it generally makes me feel worse.

And finally on a more random and happy note, I love the winter. I don't have a jacket or warm enough clothes (gotta go shoppin!) and it's freezing, but hey I like it haha, just makes me feel better being outside, so excited for Winter Break, we better get some snow!

Looking Forward

I talked on the phone with Kim for a couple hours today about just life in general. Besides being a really good conversation, it had me thinking about what I want to accomplish and where I want to be in the future, and my goals in general. Right now I'm pretty pleased with how life is going for me. I'm doing solid in school (though I need to work on motivation), I have wonderful friends and an amazing girlfriend, am fortunate enough to be receiving a college education courtesy of my parents, and I'm generally just happy.

Howabout the future though? I know that I'm only 19 years old, but doesn't hurt to think ahead you know? That's what me and Kim were talking about primarily. Some goals.

-Finish college first off, then potentially grad school? Dunno where.
-TRAVEL!!! And before I work. I'll have the rest of my life to work and live in the United States. There's no way I want to die an old man without getting out and seeing the world...I definitely want to travel for at least a few months before I start completely focusing on a career.
-Marriage. Pretty self explanatory. Besides being obviously the woman that you love, I feel like your wife is your best friend when you get married (well, if you married the right person haha I suppose), I mean you know everything and do everything with that person, and it'd be awesome to have someone like that and get to travel the world and stuff with them.
-Kids. I never understand people who are against having children. I mean...it's like a whole independent little person that you help create, and you get to watch them grow and be an influence on them, pretty amazing.
-Career. I honestly have no idea where I want to end up with this. I love writing...I love music...I love global cultures/history...I love to read...just a lot to think about in terms of what I want to do for the rest of my life. I just want to be sure to have a job that is flexible and fun, and with which I can support my wife and children so they can be happy and be able to do whatever and not have to worry.
-Music. I'd like to create music up until the day I die. Good stuff right there.
-Religion. I have kind of unorthodox views on some things, but I of course still consider myself a Christian. I'd like to explore the religion a little more and become a stronger Christian, but while retaining my own views on things. I dunno. It's complicated.

If I can manage all that, and probably other stuff I forgot, I'll have lived a fulfilling life. It's a bit overwhelming when you consider that some of the decisions you make now, while in college, can really affect the course of your entire life. Hopefully I don't screw too much of it up! Haha.

Inked.

Yesterday was busy. Too busy honestly haha, ended up with a huge headache, hopefully today I can just chill and do work. Last night was fun though, some words to describe it: naked, tattoos, cops, medians, shots. If that doesn't sound fun I don't know what does. Also, it makes me really happy that my girlfriend feels comfortable enough to talk to me about pretty much anything, and that I feel the same way :)

Also (and yes it's real, don't tell my mom...seriously. I'll tell her but not yet, and she should find out from me haha.):

If you couldn't tell, says 804, looks better in person plus it's bruised in that picture, not to mention it's a homemade tattoo, so it's not expected to be perfect haha. Stick and poke done with needles and india ink done by Ryan Burns haha, good times.

Dia de Accion de Dar Gracias

So far this year has given me a ton to be thankful for.

Friends. I've made a lot of friends since the last Thanksgiving, a lot of which I consider close friends now, which is awesome. I feel like the group I usually hang out with in college will be friends for a long time, they're all great people. Also, Kim's group of friends (aka the only ones reading this) are awesome too, letting my awkward tall self into their group and letting me come along with them when they hang out, makes me happy.

Family. Pretty self explanatory. I mean I like to think I'm a lil more independent now that I'm in school, but still, my mom and dad do a ton for me, and have really shaped the way I think of things in a positive light.

Hardcore. The warehouse is practically like a second home haha, I'm never not there. I've made a ton of good friends over the years through this music, met a bunch of other interesting people, travelled to weird/cool places, and just had a great time. Not to mention straight edge, I'm happy and thankful to remain true to myself and what I believe in.

Girlfriend. Basically 6 months of being happy. Adventures, exploring Richmond, weird inside jokes, nonstop craziness....it's been awesome haha, couldn't be happier. Thankful for having someone I can talk to all the time and tell anything and call both my girlfriend and one of my best friends.

Waffle House. Affordable food. Horrible coffee. Meghan. Me and my friends have spent so much time there, figured a shout out was warranted.

Today/tonight was funny/awesome :)